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Sunday, September 10, 2006

Sun, 10 Sep 2006 12:51:07 GMT

so things lately have been quit "interesting"

we are undefeated in volleyball so far 4-0! which is pretty sweet!

schools not that bad but the shitload of homework im gettin close to everynight is outrageous...it seems liek theres no time for anythign anymore....so stressful...blah! haha!

...permit next month! (finally)...lol

love you john..

Monday, August 07, 2006

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 17:40:49 GMT

so...im bored! haha!

SPIRIT RALLEY TOMORROW!!

VOLLEYBALL all week

school starts the 28th...blah!

.....i love john.....and popcycles!!! ;)

One 16year old boy Michael and a 16 year old girl Sarah fell deeply in love since the very first day they met. They both lived in California but the girl had just moved there a year ago but fell for him so fast. Michael played on her dads football team he was the best player on the team and her dad saw him as a son of his own. Sarah was a cheerleader on the team and had everything she ever wanted. Until one day......her life crashes.

Mom: Wake up honey.. Michaels downstairs waiting for you.
Sarah: Oh my gosh.. I woke up to late I still need a shower and everything.
Right when she said that Michael walked into her room smiling from ear to ear.

Michael: No baby.. you're beautiful just like that now come on Im starven.
Sarah: Okay.
Sarah got out of bed put on some clothes and took his hand and walked out the door to his car and got in.

Sarah: Where are we going.. remember I have to be home by 1 .. i got cheerleaden practice and you have football.
Michael: I know..
Then Sarah noticed that Michael was really pale like he was sick or something.

Sarah: Michael are you feeling okay.. you look like you're sick?
Michael: yeah it's just my allergies.
Sarah: are you sure.. did you go to the doctors the other day?
Michael: yeah.. they just said take some allergie pills and I'll be okay.
Sarah turned to look away from Michael.. she knew there was something more than just allergies. She has allergies and she doesn't look like that. Then he reached out and held her hand.

Sarah: Ohh.. Michael your hands are cold. I dont think you're okay tell me whats really wrong..do you need to go back?
Michael: i promise you baby everything is okay..they told me to come back tomorrow but I aint going because theres nothing wrong with me.
Sarah: Michael you need to go...if they told you to then there is something wrong.
Michael let go of her hand and turned back to the road and didnt talk to her the rest of the way. Sarah just looked at him. They finally pullled up to the resturaunt and ate breakfast.

Michael: did you bring your cheerleading stuff or do we have to go back to your house to get it?
Sarah: No I have it....do you really think you should go to football like that ?
Michael: yes Sarah I'm fine.
Sarah: if you say so...
Michael:Sarah baby would I lie to you?
Sarah: no...
They got back in the car and went to the feild they got out and started practicen. Sarah was cheerleading and then out of no where they hear a boy yell..."HE'S NOT MOVING SOMEONE CALL 911..HELP COACH". Right when she heard that she turned around and saw Michael on the ground just laying there not moving. She ran to him and her dad pushed her back.
Dad: no honey you shouldnt be right here..
Sarah started to cry...
Sarah: daddy what happened is he ok?
Dad: honey just please go back with your coach
Sarah walked back and sat on the bench while the ambulance came and took him away. She got in the car with her dad and they went to the hospital. When they got there his mom was already there and talking to the Doctor. They walked over and listened.....

Doctor:You may want to sit down for this....
Michaels Mom: Is he okay?
Doctor: Mam..your son has lukiemia.....we can put him on treatments..but he might not make it because was caught it to late.
Sarah was shocked and began to cry on here dads shoulder.

Michaels Mom: what kind of treatments?
Doctor: well the treatments will cause loss of hair... but it will help slow the cancer down
Michaels Mom: but he's certain to die?
Doctor: well yeah.. but we have had this surgery to clear out the clogs.. but its possible he will not make it.
Michaels Mom: I understand... I will have to talk to him about this...can we see him now?
Doctor: one at a time though

Michaels mom looked over at Sarah and hugged her tight she knew that Sarah loved him with all her heart.

Michael's Mom: you go first sweetheart
Sarah: are you sure?
Michael's Mom: yes honey...

Sarah walks slowly to his room and turned the knob. She just stood looking at him laying there weak. He was so pale and he had cords hooked up to him and everything it was painful for her to look at him. Michael looked at her and weakly smiled at her. She went over and kneeled down beside of him.
Michael: did they already tell you?
Sarah: yes...
Michael: im sorry Sarah... i didnt want you to find out like this..
Sarah: it's ok I understand Michael....
Michael: baby I love you...(he ran his fingers through her hair)
Sarah: i love you to Michael.. with all my heart.. and I will be here for you till the end.
Michael: Im going to be okay Sarah...
The nurse walked in with Michaels mom.
Nurse: Its her turn now..

Michael looked at Sarah.....
Michael: bye baby....
Sarah: bye (she softly kissed him)

Months went by and Michael lost his hair but they was still deeply in love and Sarah was by him everyday. Michael was getting worse and he couldnt even play football and the championship game was coming up. Michael was sitting at Sarahs house with her dad and mom and her.

Michael: coach.. I wanna play tomorrow
Dad: Michael i know.. you're the best player..but I cant do that.. you'll get hurt.
Michael: No coach please this might be the last time on the feild for me.. please I wanna be able to play one more time.
Dad looked at Michael and then at Sarah.

Dad: you're a strong boy Michael and very brave....i think we can do this.
Michael: thank you so much coach.
Dad: no problem.. so what are you two doing tonight?
Michael: i wanna show Sarah something if thats ok
Dad: of course you two be careful.
Michael took Sarahs hand and lead her outside to his car. It was completely dark outside when he pulled up the football feild.

Sarah: what are we doing here?
Michael: come on
Michael grabbed a blanket and laid it down onto the feild and they both laid there looking at the stars.

Sarah: this is beautiful
Michael: I do this often.. i wanted to show you the place I love ...
Sarah: i understand Michael .. do you remember the flowers you gave me when you first asked me out?
Michael: sure do i gave you lillies your favorite.
Sarah: yeah...best day of my life...
Michael: i want you to always remember something Sarah
Sarah: what?
Michael: I will always be with you.. and I love you.. you're my baby...
Sarah: i love you to
Michael: and I want you to be happy.. I want you to marry someone have kids make a family live a happy life for me.
Sarah: no i will never marry anyone.. im marrien you Michael
Michael: i love you so much
Michael raised up and kissed her. She pushed him off and jumped up

Sarah: you still think you can catch me??
Michael: oh yeah.. im stronger than what I look
Sarah: then come on
Michael stood up and chaised her around the football feild and finally caught her. He laid on top of her and put her hands behind her head and held her there so she couldnt move. Then it started to rain and they were getting soaked but they didnt care Michael looked deep into her eyes.

Michael: whos the weak one now huh?
Sarah: Me (she giggled)
Michael: Remember what you told me that night when we was at dinner?
Sarah: no what?
Michael: you have always wanted to kiss in the rain with someone you love.
Sarah: yeah?
Michael: well your wish is my comand.
Michael leaned down and kissed her passionalty with all he had. He pulled away.

Michael: you're so beautiful
Sarah: you're such a good kisser (she laughed..so did he)
Michael: I better get you home
They got into the car and went home. It was hard for them to sleep that night but they did. It was finally the big day and they were all at the football field. Michael had on everything and Sarah was out there cheeren him on. The game begin.. the crowd was going wild for Michael and Sarah was cheeren her lil heart out for him. The score was 36 to 36. All they had to do was make one more point and they would win. Michael had the ball he ran with all he had he made it to the touchdown line and threw the ball down he had made a touch down everyone was cheering. They had won the game.. but for Michael he may have lost his life. He fell to the ground trien to catch his breath. Sarah ran to him and kneeled down over him. He looked up at her gasping for breath everyone was headen to feild.. Then her dad stood up
Dad: Back away.. give them a moment please...thats my daughters love

Michael gently raised his hand touched her whiped her tears away.

Sarah: dont die Michael.. i need you.. I love you..
Michael: i told you this was my dream to win the championship.. to be in the big game.. to die on this feild... i made history
Sarah leaned down and kissed him knowing this was the last she will ever kiss him last time she would ever talk to him she had so much to say but didnt have time.

Michael: I love you baby...........tell mom i love her to..and tell coach thanks
Sarah: I love you Michael so much..
Michael: ill wait for you..
Michaels hand dropped and he let go.. he died that night on the football feild. Sarah cried for 2months straight... Sarah was lien in her bed when her dad walked in.

Dad: honey its been 2months... please get up.. he would want you to have fun and be happy..
Sarah: i know
Dad: guess what
Sarah: what
Dad: they are builden a new stadium aint that great honey come on I want you to come with me... before they tear the old one down..
Sarah got up and went with her dad they climbed to the to of the bleachers and looked down.

Sarah: its like it was just yesterday he was out there throwen the football maken the touchdown.
Her dad wrapped his arms around when she began to cry.

Dad: i know baby.. I know
Then Sarah noticed something on the feild.

Sarah: whats that daddy look?
Dad: look like flowers blooming.
Sarah: oh my gosh daddy stop them dont let them tear this down please.. Michael planted me something.
Her dad ran down there and stopped them.
Weeks later the flowers had bloomed and her dad and her went and looked at it... They were lillies that left a message saying "I Love You".

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Wed, 19 Jul 2006 19:14:51 GMT

"Love And Memories"

Lovely, you're always lovely
A vision
You were the one
Now I am stuck inside a memory
You forgot about our destiny
You buried me
Didn't you?
Didn't you?

Love me faster than the devil
Run me straight into the ground
Drowning deep inside your water
Drowning deep inside your sound

You're always floating
A vapor
That I couldn't see
Here I am stuck inside a yesterday
Everything has given way
You fell from me
Didn't you?
Didn't you?

Love me faster than the devil
Run me straight into the ground
Drowning deep inside your water
Drowning deep inside your sound
Love me faster than the devil
Run me straight into the ground
Drowning deep inside your water
Drown in love and memories

Maybe I am a crowded mind
I watch your eyes glaze over
Stared down at the floor
You were amazing to me
I was amazing to you
But here we go again

Didn't you
Love me faster than the devil
Run me straight into the ground
Drowning deep inside your water
Drowning deep inside your sound
Love me faster than the devil
Run me straight into the ground
Drowning deep inside your water
Drown in love and memories

UNBELIEVABLE! LIFE IS TO PERFECT <3 IM DONE WITH XANGA FOR A WHILE>>MIGHT COMMENT...? :)

CALL THE CELLULAR!

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 01:43:45 GMT

alright....that i just had to get off of my chest but im alright now! hehe.

now lets get this bitch lit! ;) LOVE YOU!

cell it!...330 432 1083

[[pop it...i dare ya!]] <3

well looks like im the fuckin top of the line gossip right now. i dont know why but so many fuckin people are talkin about me right now its not even cool....to all of you that are doin so - ya know what FUCK YOU! and if u so call me one of your friends n ur talkin shit behind my back...consider ur ass to be a waste of my time...dont even bother to fuckin talk to me... all of you need to grow up a little bit...act like adults...and get a good fuckin taste of reality and life. its not always the way you want it to go but ya know deal with it ..theres nothin u can do to change it...except to change yourself and the negative way u influence others that make them become just like u. to be in what you like to call the "in crowd" is completely old school...honestly if u think that i dont find ot about the shit that goes around think agian fuck bags. take a rain check...that is if u know...u can actually talk to me without bullshittin yourself. IM DONE WITH EVERYONES SHIT.

imma show ya how ta get-chya shine on!

Sat, 24 Jun 2006 23:50:38 GMT

wow...everything turns to shit when you dont have electircity...but we got it back so its all good! .... ive been in such a good mood lately...but it sucks that my johnny boy is in myrtle! ;( but hes comin campin with us on the 2nd to the 4th so that shoudl be a load of fun!

volleyball is soo close! im pumped for the season to start! we will deff. kick ass!

*party?*

i found this...thoguht it was eh pretty touching? haha

[[love & miss you]]

Dear mommy,

Mommy, Its me, your little girl. You know, the one you never got to meet. Well I am here in heaven and I wanted to write to you to say that I love you so, so much. I remember when I first realized I was in you. That I was alive. I felt so happy to be able to be your little girl.
But that all changed one day. You had always talked to me.. You said you hoped I looked like you. And that you hoped I was a girl. I wanted to say that I would do anything for you. And Daddy. I loved him too. But he always yelled at you to "Get it taken care of". I wonder what he meant. You always cried when he said that and you always said no. But one day you said "fine, I'm sick of you saying this. Im getting it taken care of." That day, was very quiet. All I heard was you crying. You cried and I wanted to cry with you. I wanted to know why you were so sad.
Daddy was happy though. He said it was for the best, and that you would be happier with out it in the way. I wonder what he meant by It. You cried and cried. You were so sad. I wonder if you knew what was going to happen. It was so horrible Mommy. I was getting nice and ready for a little nap, I had plenty of room, and I noticed that morning that I had these little fingers and toes. I was so excited. I couldn't stop playing with them. Sucking my thumb. Wriggling my toes.
And so, there I was, nice and warm and happy. Ready for a little nap. And all of a sudden I heard you cry, and I felt something strange. Some new stuff came in by me. I thought it might taste good. So I opened my mouth and swallowed some. But.. Mommy it hurts so bad. I was burning. It hurt. I tried to spit it out, but I couldn't. I tried to call out to you. I said "Mommy, what's happening?" But you didn't answer. I don't think you heard me. But I heard you. I heard you say "NO! No! I don't want this.. Stop please. I want my baby!!" but another voice said "its too late. The saline has already been swallowed". Mommy you cried so hard.
I tried to fight. I didn't want to leave you. But I was starting to bleed. I couldn't breathe so well. I was so afraid. I wanted to be there for you. For you to hold. But I could feel myself slowly falling apart. I couldn't breathe. And Mommy with my last breath I said I loved you. I really do.
I am here in heaven now. I just wish you weren't so sad. I can still hear you crying. I want to be there with you. But I am up here now. Sitting with these other little ones. They all tell my story and everyday more join us. We all wanted to be there for our mommies. But, we just couldn't fight. We are too weak.
I love you Mommy. Please think of me. I think of you.

www.myspace.com/sammixjo

Sunday, June 18, 2006

Sun, 18 Jun 2006 20:49:07 GMT

Saturday, June 10, 2006

Sat, 10 Jun 2006 04:14:13 GMT

"Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful."

There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
But You sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
and pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars
Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

I give You my destiny
I'm giving You all of me
I want Your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

I LOVE YOU JOHN!

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Wed, 24 May 2006 23:47:09 GMT

WOW so school is basically over we only have 2 more days for finals and then we are done! this year went by too quick! my sophomore year is gunna be my sweetest i can tell already! ;) its gunna be one year to remember!!

SUMMER o6'

goin to florida on saturday...be back in 2 weeks!! love ya'll! i got my phone so call if ya wanna talk but leave a message n ill call u right back cuz ill prolly be either shoppin at the beach,universal,at hooters gettin wings or some other crazy place! =)

EDIT!:

well first day at florida...not too bad! lol i could deff mover down here in a heart beat!! i love it! im so excited to be here you have no idea! but anyhow-to start everythign off me n my sister got on the plane to go to detroit...not bad only a half hour flight...but then our agent that we hired was a half hour late to escort us to another plane that took us to florida so basically she put us through sum stress cuz we about missed our plane! nuts n this really lil kid kept hittin the seats n countin to 100...n a baby was cryin. yeah i had to deal with that for an hour n 47 minutes...sucky?! n to top it all of...they lost our luggage! go figure!

2nd day-finally got our luggage about 7 o clock lol me n kylie basically just went swimmin in my ants pool! ...tomorrow were gunna go to the beach...=) n from the chlorine in the pool (i think) my allergies are actin up again..

3rd day-didnt get to go to the beach...didnt wake up until 2 in the afternoon...hopefully i'll be better before we go to universal whenever that is lol i forget

4th day-went to the beach...took some pics...ill put em up later...=) prolly gunns go back tomorrow n run in the morning..(not really gunne be doin much until this weekend) cuz we are gunna go to universal n ill be really busy after then...

wow..too busy to update my trip write about it later??

i love you sammi i hope you feel better and knoo i miss yaa babe...-johnnnn

Sunday, May 21, 2006

Sun, 21 May 2006 05:12:55 GMT

okay. so just a lil

update... i love you john!

my relationship with john

is amazing! we love eachother so

much!...nothign can get any

better!! but obviously a few people

dont understand that we

trust eachother and tell eachother

anythign and everythign...

and im guessin why thats kinda why

ive been in a bad mood...

because people has been starting

stuff and their actions arent

helping! even know when they

know me and john are together...

they are still placing themselves in

awkward positions. which leads

to no good! and the funny

thign is they dont realize its

high school and that i get to know

what goes on...trust me i get

to find out everythign that

involves me...u can be talkin trash about me...ill know about

it...all im going to say on that

is what goes around-comes

around, its life get over it.

so many people are messin up

their lives right now...people

need to understand if their best

friend is havin a rough time

or they need help from what they

do...that they need to be the

one to stand up...get them some

help and a lack of common sense.

well at least i know that im

not going to be the one screwed

over by a dumb mistake...to

many great things are going on

for me right now and im not

going to take the chance in losin

everything...its not worth it.

dont disrespect me or give me a

hard time because u want my

opinion or the truth-ill give it

to you!. if you dont like what i

have to say then dont

ask me about anythign...get help

from someone else... im done

with helpin out...everyone is acting

like sluts n whores...so ya know

what? forget you! im not

wasting my time anymore if your

going to take what i got n

make a scene outta it n cause

a problem...people need to just be

real and to stop caring about

whatother people think! its really

getting outta hand! tell it how it is!

lifes rough...

Sunday, May 14, 2006

Sun, 14 May 2006 05:18:54 GMT

hm well katies party was pretty sweet!! we didnt go to sleep until like 5 in the morning! it got pretty nuts!... WE DONT MESS AROUND! theres nothing that can really be better than rockin' out to sandstorm with glow sticks, campin' out with a late night fire, and havin' a time of your life with your best friends!

&& she's just scared. scared to lose him.
she's scared she'll do something wrong to
make him want to leave. she's scared he's
going to find someone else so much better
than her. she's scared--because she finally
realized how much he means to her.

I love being with you. I don't have to work
hard to impress anyone. You know all my
faults. I can cry in front of you and you'll
just hold me while the tears fall. With you I
feel almost perfect. Sometimes we don't
even have to say anything-just being
together is enough. Even though we know
everything about each other, we never run
out of things to say. You're always there for
me, either to hold me or laugh with me.
You've been with me through everything, I
can't imagine not having you in my life.

Love is
being happy for the other person when they are happy
being sad for the other person when they are sad
being together in good times
and being together in bad times
Love is the source of strength
Love is
being honest with yourself at all times
being honest with the other person at all times
telling, listening, respecting the truth
and never pretending
Love is the source of reality
Love is
an understanding that is so complete that
you feel as if you are a part of the other person
accepting the other person just the way they are
and not trying to change them to be something else
Love is the source of unity
Love is
the excitement of planning things together
the excitement of doing things together
Love is the source of the future
Love is
the fury of the storm
the calm of the rainbow
Love is the source of passion
Love is
knowing that the other person
will always be with you regardless of what happens
missing the other person when they are away
but remaining near in heart at all times
Love is the source of security
Love is the
source of life

I LOVE YOU JOHN!!!!